November

Ahh well the end of November is quickly approaching. I have about three more weeks of school, a few final papers, and yet... no tests. SWEET. I took one test for my Assessment class, but it was retarded (about as retarded as the midterm). The prof gives us the questions and answers to study and then he checks our tests before we turn it in so that we're not missing anything (or at least missing a lot... on the midterm I missed one damn point). So hopefully I did well on that test last week. But we shall see.

As far as life in general, it's looking pretty good I think. I was supposed to meet up with this random guy I met online on Saturday... and he turned out to be a psycho even before I hung out with him. Let me explain...

We randomly started chatting last week and I gave him my AIM SN. He would constantly IM me (even when my status was away... which I don't really mind when it's someone that I talk to on a regular basis, but that's pretty weird for a guy I JUST started talking to). Anyway. I gave him my number because we had plans to hang out this last Saturday. He called me on Wednesday and we chatted for like 30-40 minutes... Anyway, I told him that he should feel honored that I talked to him at all since it's rare for me to talk to anyone on the phone. So what does he do? Calls me again on Friday at like 6 pm just to TALK. What the heezy... I was about to take a nap and he called to ask what I did all day. So effing weird.

So Saturday rolls around and Susie tells me that she gets 33% off at the Rack so I decide to blow off random internet guy and I was nice enough to be honest. This was our conversation:

Me: Sorry, can't make it later today... I'm not canceling... just postponing
Him: Oh. Did something come up?
Me: Yeah... actually I'm going to be perfectly honest and say that I'm going shopping... my friend gets a huge discount and I can't miss it... it only comes around like once a year. I'm really really sorry but we'll meet up later in the week.
Him: That's lame. I think you just don't want to hang out and you're just making up an excuse.
Me; uh... Well I'm telling the truth so take it or leave it
Him: Well, call me after you go shopping and let me know how it goes to make feel better
Me: uh... I'll call if I have time, but I'm going to be pretty busy for the rest of the night

PSYCHO. And he wasn't like OVERTLY crazy, just crazy enough. I could see him being a really needy, clingy, and annoying guy to date. Yikes.

Anyway, he IM'ed me last night and said, "Don't get mad, but I don't think I want to hang out anymore"... ahhh he took the words right out of my MOUTH. Thank goodness. I didn't really feel like getting stabbed anyway.

But, I have gone on a few dates with this other random guy... and I actually like him. I go on dates with him because I actually WANT to... not because I think it's good practice. So... we'll see how this turns out. :) I'm actually excited to be excited.

Epiphany

So.. being in a counseling grad program really makes you re-evaluate who you think you are. I was promised at the beginning of the program that I will leave a different person... and interestingly enough, I've already had an epiphany about myself. Amazing. Anyway, I've realized that I have a really really difficult time dealing with sadness. But not in the way you think.

It's hard for me to witness sad people... especially people who are crying. At first I thought it was just pure empathy ("Oh, I'm such a PEOPLE person that I cab just feel everyone else's feelings"). But then I realized it's not just empathy. I want people to stop crying for self-serving purposes. I can't bear to watch people cry because it just plain freaks me out. I've realized that I hate hate HATE feeling sad and expressing sadness. I have two gears: happy and angry. That's it. Two speeds. Two. That's it. Eh, maybe a third... neutral. Hm.

Anywhoo... I think I did my own fair share of crying in my teenage years and early 20s. Now I'm just this bitter old bitch who lacks any real human emotion because I'm over compensating for sadness. I feel as though I'm just kinda moving through life without really living. I need to reevaluate my thought-process.

Crying and sadness do not equal weakness. (repeat)

NOTE: sorry this is kind of a downer if anyone is actually reading, but this thought has been kind of consuming me for the past few days.

Uh... This is amazing.

My SF Visit

So! Updates again I guess.... although there is almost nothing new to report.  I did just find out today that I got a job as a Career Counseling Assistant at West LA College... NICE. It's part-time, in the right job field, and I could possibly use these hours as internship hours for next year! Awesome. It also helps that my sister's good friends with the guy who hired me. Sweeeet. So it's all kind of up in the air still, but hopefully I'll start at the end of this week and go from there!

Last Tuesday I drove from LA to SF for a friend's (her name is Zzipper) wedding and to hang out with all my much missed SF buddies.  I carpooled with my friend Kathy who also had a wedding to attend that weekend, so we decided to have a little roadtrip.

I arrived Tuesday night and had dinner with Ellen and my other friend Kathy at Mehfil, my favoritest Indian/Pakistani joint ever. Mmmmm delicious chicken tikka masala.  Wednesday I had lunch with Melissa at Out the Door, we walked around the mall and a little bit of Union Square area, met up with other old coworkers at Jade Bar, had a delicious pizza dinner at Patxi's... and interestingly enough, I got TIPSY.  I surprised myself.  I had a giant mojito at Jade Bar and then a beer at Patxi's.  So awesome. I haven't been tipsy in... well a long time.  Tipsy, not sick. :) Nice.

Thursday, I visited Ellen at Apple for lunch then stopped by Google to hang with Kishore and Ty for a bit.  That night Ellen and I got Burma Superstar take-out for dinner (YUM) and then watched Pineapple Express (funny... also James Franco is a hottie... although he looks homeless in this movie, I'd still hit it).  Friday, Ellen and I shopped for a dress for her to wear to Zzip's wedding and then we headed up to Sonoma around 3-ish.  The wedding was beautiful! COLD as hell, but beautiful and small and intimate.  It was great seeing all my old coworker buddies... haven't seen them in over a year.

Saturday, Ellen and I met up for brunch with Em and Melissa at Mission Beach Cafe in the Mission. Yum. After we walked off our meal by checking out all the random stores in the Mission.  I'd say we walked a good 15-20 blocks! After, Ellen and I got $39 massages in Chinatown. So good. Seriously.  It was comparable to the $85 massages that I got at my old employer. Nice.  Saturday night we met up with Bo & Co. for dinner at Town Hall in SoMa.  I ordered the yummiest fried chicken with creamed corn and gravy and biscuits. Ugh... taste explosion.  Most of my trip revolved around all the delicious things I got to eat.  After dinner, we headed to 83 Proof and hung out for a bit before everyone finally succumbed to food coma.

Sunday was my last day in the city and I spent the morning walking around Chinatown and eating dim sum with Ellen! Yum yum fun. I left the city around 1:30 pm and got home around 8 pm (with a few stops in between).  Susie and I are already planning another trip to SF in late October... weeeee!

And now... pictures!

Update Time Again

Well nothing much has happened in the last month.  I'm still an unemployed bum, I still sleep way later than a 25 year old should, and I'm as boring as ever.  Hmm let's see what's happened since my last update...

No additional dates have occurred with the guy I went out with last month.  He was really sweet and funny... but I just wasn't that into him.  I think I have a mental block and am just scared to meet new people. Or well, I'm not scared to MEET new people, but to DATE new people is scary.  Also, I haven't spoken to him in over a month. So he's probably not interested in me either. No foul, no harm. Other than that guy, there aren't any other prospects.  I think I just need to stop trying/caring and just enjoy my singledom.

I'm still unemployed but will be working at good ol' Nordy's this upcoming weekend to help out during the sale! I'm pretty excited to reprise my role as shoe cashier and hope that I don't spend more money than I make. That would be totally counter-productive.  No new job prospects either. I've applied to a few local admin type stupid jobs around my house, but unfortunately no one wants to talk/interview/hire me. Lame. Oh well, I'd just like to enjoy my summer before school starts. 

Since my last post, I traveled to Pismo once again with Susie and Chris for a 3-day-middle-of-the-week random trip to eat Jocko's, eat Splash, and watch tv at the condo. Awesome. Susie and I did shop

 a bit at the Pismo Outlets but were greatly disappointed and only bought some big pouffy house slippers (they were like $3... sweeeet).  On the way home we did stop at the Camarillo Outlets and were much luckier! Well, lucky as in we found lots of great things to buy... unlucky because I'm draining my already dry bank account.  I found a really really cute cotton v-neck navy dress from J.Crew, some cute navy shorts, and I think that's it. Susie got a cute dress and top too! Yay shopping!

I also visited San Diego with my family this last weekend. It was a totally fun and wholesome family weekend trip.  We stayed at the Embassy Suites (my mom won two free nights at any Embassy Suites/Hilton in CA), visited my mom's relatives, went to Sea World (which was freaking awesome since I haven't been there since I was like 9 or 10), and hung out at the hotel room.  Embassy Suites probably has the best breakfast at a hotel EVER.  It's just like Google breakfast.  Made-to-order omelette bar, all you can eat bacon, sausage, panclocks, french toast, toast, fruit, oatmeal bar, etc etc etc. Wow, I'm getting a little bit hungry just thinking about it. Hm. Anyway, the trip was pretty awesome.  My aunt and little cousin joined us and it was a great trip overall.  I'll post a few random pics from the trip...

Cutest little penguin ever! I should have bought it...

Jumping picture... FAIL.

Jumping picture... success!

Me looking up a statue's skirt... dirty girl!

Shamu!

Scary sharks... the one on the bottom does NOT look happy.

Dolphin! My favorite animal I think... so smart and cute.

Seals!

Posing for penguin pics!

Walrus pushing his face up on the glass

Family portrait minus my older sister

Making funny faces

So overall... quite a good trip! I love Sea World. They have a ticket deal right now that if you buy a day pass, you can come back ANOTHER day for FREE anytime before the end of 2008. Hopefully I can finagle someone to come with me again. I love animals! Next stop... Magic Mountain or Disneyland or some other theme park perhaps. I forgot how much fun theme parks are.

Oh! I also registered for my classes, got my ID card, and am all set for school! Yay. I'm pretty excited. I hope it's not super duper hard... it's okay if it's kind of hard as long as it's interesting. Wish me luck.

Over and out!