March is Almost Over

I like to state the obvious. So yes, March is almost over and what the hell have I been doing with myself? I'm more than halfway done with my Spring semester. In mid-May I will have completed my first year of graduate school. Wow. It's been an interesting journey, but I guess I'll talk about that after I successfully COMPLETE my first year.

What else is happening... work is the same. A bit more going on which is OK I guess. I like doing nothing for work but I guess if I can do some meaningful crap then, that's good too I guess. Hmm. The commuting does suck though. I fill my tank two to three times a week. AND speaking of driving...

I am finally in a relationship. It feels weird and foreign to me. I'm not sure how to act or how to feel or what's appropriate or what's out of line or what's normal. I feel all awkward and insecure and unsure of what's supposed to happen. All this newness is kind of fun I guess, but mostly it's just confusing and maybe a bit stressful. I like the guy and I LIKE being in a relationship with him, but it's still just all so new to me. Anyway, he lives like 50 miles from my house which is why I mentioned the driving thing. It's a pretty crappy drive but it's not too bad. I've driven from his apt to school TWICE already, and it's 75 miles from his place to school. And then after school is over, it's 40 miles home. UGH shoot me.

But it's worth it I guess. We'll see. In the beginning of the relationship, I think I was more reluctant and he was more into it... and now that I'm more into it, I feel like he might be becoming more reluctant. Why is this so effing confusing? This is kind of why it takes me so long to like someone... because the moment I start investing, I start to lose it. Or feel like I'm about to lose it. Am I losing it?!

UGH.

February.

School has started, the rain is here, and it's finally cold again. This SoCal weather is soo crazy. Last week it was 85 degrees and sunny. This week it is cold and rainy and it's hailed a few times. Yeesh. Anyway, this month has been pretty good so far, but then again it's only the 7th.

Ahhh hello cynical Christy. Hehe, well after my stupid dating disappointment before Christmas I've started to re-enter the dating world. Even though my dating disappointment, hereby known as DD, wasn't that terrible. I think it was just the fact that I started to get excited, then I got nervous that I was getting excited because I was scared of being disappointed, and then hello self fulfilling prophecy... I was disappointed. *Sigh. Anyway, I decided to sign up for Match and it's been pretty bad. I get lots of msgs from dirty old men (I've gotten a few from 40+ year old men) and from guys that don't quite have a handle on the English language. Terrible. But I did actually start talking to this one guy that is 1. smart 2. not a nerd 3. cute 4. normal 5. not a stalker/serial killer as far as I can tell.

So.... we'll see where this goes. We went on our first date last week after chatting online/texting/phone conversations for a few weeks.

Cute.

Dating is a joke. I hate dating and I hate being rejected.

Life sucks.

December... End of 2008

So here it is, the end of the year. And what's happened? Hmmm not THAT much apparently. Ok, I'm downplaying it, but seriously. Nothing super crazy has happened in my life and I'm pretty much alright with that. I guess. Let's start from the beginning shall we?

Highlights of Christy's 2008

January: moved from SF to LA, back in with the parents.

February: applied to grad school, enrolled in a Stats class in preparation for grad school

March: interviewed for grad school, got a crappy job at a spa

April: accepted into grad school

May: turned 25 years old... quarter of a century and what do I have to really show for myself? Well, I guess grad school...

June: finished stats and got an A... A for AMAZING, quit my crappy job

July: wow, nothing-ness... no job, no school, no money, and yet no problem

August: still nothing-ness until the end of the month when I started my grad program

September: school, got another job... not crappy but crappy commute

October: went on my FIRST date in like 6 months

November: went on another first date with another guy, actually enjoyed myself?

December: finished school (well my first semester and it feels soooo good), still working, still going on dates with the same guy

So it hasn't been THAT bad of a year. Just a little boring. I wish I could put some more action into this post but not too much has actually happened. To sum up my year in 12 short sentences... well that's a little sad. But hey, whatever! I'm pretty excited (and scared) to see what the new year brings. Hopefully excitement and happiness, but we shall SEE. I'm not holding my breath..

I still have great friends and I live rent free so life is pretty good.